Cerremos las importaciones.

Me importa.  Me importa pero no quiero que me importe. Me importa pero digo que no me importa. No me importa pero me tiene que importar. No me importa pero me obligo a que me importe. No me importa pero cómo no me va a importar? No me importa pero a vos te importa entonces me importa. No me importa, a vos tampoco te importa, entonces me importa porque a alguien le tiene que importar. Me importa porque me lo imponen. No me importa porque me lo quieren imponer.
Ya no sé qué me importa. No sé si me importa algo. No sé si hay algo que no me importe.

No.

No.

No.

None of this matters

No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should've been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day.
This is all practice.
None of this matters.

-C.P.

Hold on to my heart

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you

That I almost believe that they're real 

I've been living so long with my pictures of you

That I almost believe that the pictures are 

All I can feel

Remembering 

You standing quiet in the rain 

As I ran to your heart to be near 

And we kissed as the sky fell in

Holding you close 

How I always held close in your fear

Remembering 

You running soft through the night 

You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow

And screamed at the make-believe 

Screamed at the sky

And you finally found all your courage 

To let it all go

Remembering 

You fallen into my arms 

Crying for the death of your heart 

You were stone white

So delicate 

Lost in the cold 

You were always so lost in the dark

Remembering 

You how you used to be 

Slow drowned 

You were angels

So much more than everything 

Hold for the last time then slip away quietly 

Open my eyes 

But I never see anything

If only I'd thought of the right words 

I could have held on to your heart 

If only I'd thought of the right words

I wouldn't be breaking apart 

All my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you 

But I never hold on to your heart 

Looking so long for the words to be true

But always just breaking apart

My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world

That I ever wanted more 

Than to feel you deep in my heart

There was nothing in the world 

That I ever wanted more

Than to never feel the breaking apart

All my pictures of you

Por qué llorás?
Sentís que te estalla la mente?
No entiendo cómo es posible ser tan feliz y sentirse tan como la mierda al mismo tiempo. Pero hay muchas cosas que no entiendo. Aunque últimamente llegué a la conclusión de que entiendo más de las que me gustaría entender. Ser consciente de ciertas cosas no está tan bueno.
Por qué llorás?
Siento que me estalla la cabeza.
Quiero dejar de pensar por un rato. Un buen rato.
Por qué llorás?
Siento que me estalla el alma. Y entonces recuerdo que, si quiero, puedo volar.

¿Alguna vez os habéis sentido tan felices que ya no vale la pena vivir más?

 Dador de infinito, yo no sé tomar, perdoname.

Choked on society laced with cyanide

But you were always one to stay the same girl
I know you want to be the rain
And I know that we would fall in there
For a time and then unfall again
For awhile I take you burying old bones
Dawns grey the sign in the winter light
And I know that you can feel the pain
Your eyes speak one hundred million knives
Don't tell me you've gone astray
I walk in circles
I've seen a million things that tell me so
But I was always one to play the fool girl
Though the rules were somewhat dark to me
And I know that we could fall in there
For a time and then unfall again
For a while I give you darium bound stones z
Growing through the roots of your mind to set apart
And I know that you can feel the pain
Your eyes speak one hundred million lies
Total anxiety pay for variety
We'll want for time to turn around your faith
Wait for time in turn
The world we sold there was a choir there
Don't tell me you've gone astray
I talk in circles
Everlasting chains that bind my purpose
Only I've seen the million things that tell me so
Total anxiety pay for variety
Wait for time to turn around your faith
Choked on society laced with cyanide
Wait for time to turn around your faith
wait for time to turn

How can it mean anything to me if I really don't feel anything at all?

Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden
Anyone should bear.

Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
and I wouldn't have
It any other way.

It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.

Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.

I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be
Well upon our way.

Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.

It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.

Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.

Something kinda sad about
the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?

How can it mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?

I'll keep digging till
I feel something.

Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. Turn around and take my hand.

AFP

Ser y dejar de ser y no saber ni querer saber
dónde estás a dónde vas
por qué te quedás
por qué llorás
qué hay detrás de tus ojos
cuando llueve y el viento te vuela el pelo
y vos no sentís
no sufrís
no vivís
no dejás de buscar
entender
ver
saber
conocer
comprender
aprender
aprehender
pero todo te hace
caer
volar
volver a caer
más bajo
más lejos
de acá
de vos
de mi
de todo
de nada
por nada
gracias
por favor
chau.